Look into my eyes...

Do you see the physicality of the eye?

Do you see the colors of the eye?

Do you see the biological intricacy of the eye?

Do you see the perfect symmetry of the eyes?

Do you see a reflection of you, in me?

Do you see me judging you, measuring you?

Do you see me loving you, wanting you?

Do you see me hating you, despising you?

Do you see what I see?

Do you see kindness and peace?

Do you see calm and quiet?

Do you see perplexity and confusion?

Do you see the beauty around?

Do you see the questions unanswered but sound?

Do you see the simplicity and complexity unbound?

Do you see life and its limitless surround?

Do you see?

Open yours eyes and see!

More than a year has come and gone

More than a year has come and gone

Feels like yesterday, he was just here…

But again, I have to remind myself

He is no more, of this world...

I miss hearing his re-assuring, matured, deep voice,

It was always a short conversation over the phone,

Yet it conveyed much and seemed enough...

Who do I turn for now, for such wisdom and words?

I miss asking him, 'How are you? What is new?'

He always seemed to be able to cope with his pain,

Be it physical or psychological,

Where do I get such inspiration from now?

Memories fail me already,

But some thoughts or moments, are intact...

Times like… when I was a kid and used to hold his hand,

Walk by his side, and was called his replica...

Such pride he took in me and such confidence he had...

Barely a day before he parted...

He told me, he was alright and would be fine,

Even though, I think, he knew... That was end of line for him

In spite of all these feelings and emotions,

I know of his absence,

But mostly through sensing pain from family members

Who were there to experience his heart breaking departure

I feel his absence (well, in sorts...)

I miss him, I have accepted it too,

Yet it hasn't quite sunk in, still…!!!

Even though more a year has come and gone...

Dearest Grand-dad - 14" x 17" - Acrylic on canvas

Note to Self

When I attended a silence course a few months back, one of the activities required us to write five things that we wished to change about our-self. Here are the five things I wrote down. Still not quite doing these things, but well, always trying.. a bit everyday.. :)

Accept Change

Surrender

Be Lighter in Everyday Life

Realize that I am Insignificant

Smile More

Luffy - Oil on Canvas - 12" x 17"
He is a character from an anime called One Piece. Very inspirational. He follows everyone of those things I mentioned above. At least from my point of view!

Cheers!