November 24, 2012

Night Sky

Oh life! What is it that you want from me?
What is it that I must do to keep myself satisfied?
How do I retain that sparkle and life in my eye?
Is keeping myself occupied the only way?
Why am I so astray from myself?
Where is that connectedness I once felt (of sorts), with existence?
Why do small things in daily life bother me so much?
Why can't I just be?!

There is light within me, I know. Also the path to attain it, I have been granted. Why is it that I can't follow it with dedication? Just like a night sky... there is a moon, to guide me with a bright light... yet it seems that all I see off late is just the darkness around it... shadows and dark trees... Oh please! Let the sun shine again!

Night Sky - 9" x 12" - Oil pastel sticks on paper

October 26, 2012

उसके हाँथ

इन्ही हाँथों ने संभाला जब जन्मा ही था, 
इन्ही हाँथों ने चलना सिखाया। 
सदा होंसला दिया इन्ही हाँथों ने,
गले से लगाया इन्ही हाँथों ने, जब आँसू बहे आँखों से।

प्यार से पुचकारा इन्ही हाँथों ने, 
बिनबोले सहलाया दर्दों को, इन्ही हाँथों ने।
इन्ही हाँथों ने मंज़िल की ओर इशारा कर, तारों तक पहोंचना सिखाया, 
तालिओं की गूँज भी फिर, इन्ही हाँथों ने की, मंज़िल पाने पर। 

आज ये हाँथ, हैं रूखे-सूखे और बेजान, 
सालों की मेहेनत ने किया है, हाल बुरा इन हाँथों का।
झूरियाँ दे रही है गवाही, इन हाँथों की लम्बी उम्र की, 
बारी है मेरी, अब प्यार से सेहेलाने की, इन हाँथों को। 

क्योंकी, यही हैं वे हाँथ जिनकी वजह से हूँ, मैं आज।

Still working on this piece, but couldn't wait to share it :)
"Hard Working, Long Lived" - 18" x 24" - Oil on Canvas
(Completed Version)
Dedicated to my mom and grand-mom.

October 22, 2012

Seasons and Life

I die… Just to be born again…
A breath, inwards,
Nourishing, green,
A bud, tender and fragile

Change in season,
Youth, like spring
Fresh and joyful
Such is the state

Come summer,
Sun shines, hot and humid
Draining long hours
Eased by the rain

Fall! Oh Fall!
The end of it all!
Colors change,
Red, yellow and orange

And the cycle ends
Only to start again,
I die, just to be born again…

Took this picture at the Pine Creek Gorge, PA this Fall. (Great place to go with family and friends!!)
And it inspired me to write about seasons! Go figure! :)

A much needed retreat!

It’s intriguing to observe the ways of nature, isn’t it? For the past few weeks I had been feeling a bit aloof and disconnected from myself. Just change in life style was the cause, I am guessing. Then, almost out of nowhere, an acquaintance calls in, to check in on me and informs me of this upcoming course in silence meditation.


Didn’t even take me 24 hours to decide and register for the course! In the past I have always dwelled over whether to do it or not to etc. This time, it was almost like a ‘calling’. This came just at the right time. So anyway, this past weekend was when I went for this Art of Silence course organized by The Art of Living Foundation. From Thursday 7pm to Sunday 4pm – remaining silent from Friday afternoon to Sunday afternoon – all we did was meditate, do some yoga, some breathing exercises and a few group activities.  These techniques are so powerful! Each time I get connected with it, I get rejuvenated, revitalized and re-energized! After the course I felt so much lighter and was smiling so much more than the past few weeks. Brilliant stuff! Now all I need to do is continue practicing meditation at home.

This is how I felt after the fact...

PS – I did do it today at home! Fingers crossed for the future! Haha J

October 3, 2012

"What does music mean to you?"

A friend asked me this question a few weeks back and ever since I have been thinking about it. What does music mean to me? At that time I told him it means 'energy'. Which is true, but after some thought, it means a lot more than energy to me.

is a friend when in need
be it day or night, in health or illness,
sadness and happiness,
emotions of all kind

is a source of calmness,
energy and revitalization
after a long day,
or just for relaxation

is to let go,
for a while, get lost, get immersed
feel the vibrations of sound
within you, and rejoice!

is to party
with friends, family or strangers
move to different beats
and so many moves for so many beats!

is every sound in nature!
listen! carefully...
from rustling of leaves
to falling of snow and rain or hail
the wind blowing...
angry and violent
or calm like a whisper
on a cold night or breezy beach
river flowing... over rocks or sand or over cliffs

Music... to me
is a constantly changing form
a friend, source of relaxation, medium to let go, ingredient to party and synonymous with nature!
And probably much more, which I might add when I think of more, or learn more...

Oh! Not to forget, my paintings are mostly done in one of the above mentioned state of minds, to which music is always playing in the background!

So what does music mean to YOU?!

August 30, 2012

A Full Time Employee

Time really does fly! It has been a full month since I started working 8 hours a day, every day, every week plus an hour’s commute to and from work each way. That’s 10 hours of my day, 7am to 6pm – add another hour or so for miscellaneous stuff that comes along with the whole ordeal. So now I have 5 or so hours remaining after getting home. Two of which is usually spent cooking, eating and hanging with housemates. With the final three hours, I waste half of it watching TV shows. Such a routine life, after having almost no regular (almost over the place) schedule for the past five years!

Do I like it? – Well I guess its better in some ways than college; advantages and disadvantages as always. I do earn – which is awesome!

Do I hate it? – Not so far! (Fingers crossed for future)

Do I want to do this my entire life? – HELL NO!

What do I really want to do with my life? – No real idea, just imagination running wild for now.

How do I spend my weekends? – Ideally, by immersing myself in drawing/painting.

What’s stopping me from doing that? – No idea!

Oh! Almost forgot – I need to buy a car soon. Technically, I should be excited about this. But it just seems like a lot of burden/responsibility/liability to own a car. On top of that, I would like to buy a car of my choice – Mini Cooper!! To this end, I must save for a few months for it to materialize. Maybe I should just do that and stop complaining about it all the time. Or I could just buy a regular old sedan and voila!

Anyway, it’s amazing how things change right after graduation and then soon after a full time job. All the things listed above were least of my worries (for the most part) during college years. Sigh, I guess I am a grown up ‘young’ adult after all… 

August 12, 2012

Life as a Post Grad

A lot has happened in the last few weeks since my graduation on June 15th 2012. My mom was here for my graduation. One of the proudest day of my life and am sure for my family as well. We all had waited so long for this day and worked so hard to earn it. Too many sacrifices and compromises were made for me to able to reach this milestone. That aside I was filled with gratitude the entire time. The fact that I was able to come to the US, study and live here, accomplish things my parents wished for - means a lot in itself.

Then there was a whole lot of traveling around the US with my mom and cousins. Such fun! But more than that, the time my mom spent along with my friends was the most precious. She blend in so well with us! None of us felt like there was a generation gap as such. She was willing to listen and accept our so called modern ideas and give us her input/wisdom regarding many such matters. Frankly, she is more of a youngster than I am...

Now comes the real world, grown up stuff! 'Oh you graduated! Congrats! So what are you doing now?' - Its a dreadful question till you actually know what is it that you want to do. And then figure out how to do it? And whether you are actually able to do it. The few weeks I spent right after graduation till I got a job, were one of the most stressful times of my life so far. I never imagined it would be this difficult to grow up and take up real life responsibilities. Of course, I had a decent idea about it, but when one actually dives into it and has to experience it, that is when realization hits! And it hits hard!

I know my parents are there to support me always, but its my turn to take some burden off their shoulders and help in anyway I can. I am just starting my career, yet so much rides on me now. It feels good to stand on my feet at the same time, it needs a lot of courage, patience and perseverance. Oh well, all I really have to do is, believe in my self and continue what I am doing - keeping doing my best. That shouldn't be all that hard... should it? :) 

April 28, 2012

Graduating Fine Art Minor Exhibit 2012

In just a few weeks, I will graduate with BS/MS in biology and a minor in FINE ART!! Sooo excited! I DID IT! I finished (well almost) all three things that I set out to do five years back! Just a couple of days back my work, along with other graduating fine art minors was displayed. It was such a thrill to have my work up there; my friends and professors all came out to support me. It was an epic evening!

More than the show itself, I am glad I was able to make some personal connections with my faculty. They are sincerely supportive and proud of my work, which includes both my major and minor. I couldn't have asked for more. Thank you all!! :)

March 5, 2012


For my painting class we finally explored translating a picture reference to a painting. We had to select an Iconic Figure and interpret it in our own way. I choose Mother Teresa as my iconic reference. As a part of interpretation, I selected a monochromatic photograph and decided to add my own colors to it. While browsing various pictures of her, one thing became certain: I wanted to preserve her positive energy and vibe she exudes. The depth in her eyes and long life evident by her wrinkled face were other things that captured my attention. But her brilliant and infectious smile is what I wanted to translate the most! I hope I have done some justice in doing so...

Mother Teresa, 18" x 24", Oil on Canvas
"Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love"
-Mother Teresa here's to spreading smile and love!

February 11, 2012

Human Form

I see a human figure
Full of vigor 
She stands proud 
Between the crowd

She is being observed
Every inch covered
We steal a glance
During the artful dance

To do her justice
I must practice
Right proportion and angle
Are the key to untangle
Her body's mystery
Hiding, layers of history